Friday, February 28, 2014
Choose - five minute Friday
I don't like that. It's hard for me to make decisions. Choosing something means deciding against something else. And what if that something else is better? What if I make the wrong decision? This conundrum has kept me paralysed often. But avoiding the decision is choosing as well. There is no getting away from it. But I'm learning that the anxiety that decision-making provokes in me, can be abated by TRUST. Trusting in the God that works ALL things for the good. If He works ALL things and not just the 'right choices' then I have insurance and assurance.
It's taken me a while to get to the point where I do trust God; especially about the small things. The big things are always too big for me - I don't want that kind of responsibility, so I'm much quicker handing it over to God. The small things, well, I think I should be able to handle those. I'm not confident in my ability to make the small decisions, so much procrastination normally results before I can make an actual choice, but I'm much slower to hand them over to God. I'm much slower to trust that all will be well in the end. I'm much more likely to have residual anxiety in my heart. Still, I'm making the CHOICE to be patient with myself, to give myself more time to choose rather than rushing to cover up my lack of confidence and gifting myself more anxiety and cheating myself of his peace in the process.