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I wanted to tell him. I needed to tell him. We were alone, as if it had been ordained. It was sunrise on the beach - as romantic as it gets. But I could only manage a whisper. And he didn't hear me. So I had to force my voice to form the words again, but a little louder. "I like you".
I could admit my deepest feelings through tears and in a whisper. She was listening intently, I didn't have to repeat myself.
They are sleeping (at last, and thank you God) and I can whisper words of love and prayers for their protection over their little heads. Finding peace and calm that was completely elusive during their waking minutes but falls so fast with their slumber.
I whisper "help" and "thank you" sending them heavenward so often in the daily struggles.
I walk and walk and whisper Hail Marys as I process those terrible minutes when I thought she was lost. Mary must understand, she lost Jesus and didn't find him for days until she backtracked to the temple.
I whisper to myself "you can do it" and "it's going to be okay" when I'm worried about this new step in my life. These whispers are so much better than the internal sneers that I used to hear in my head.
Hi there! This was fascinating and I throw up desperate prayers throughout my parenting days. I loved your connection to Mary's feelings of losing Jesus. I never think of that! and our blog taglines are almost identical!! Trying to find grace in this parenting thing! So glad I found you via Five Minute Friday!
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